I play hide and seek almost daily, we play so much that I will sometimes beg my daughter to play Barbie’s instead. I can’t stand playing Barbie’s, my daughter is very bossy when we play. Sometimes my Barbie just wants five dogs and a raccoon but she won’t allow it.

Sorry, got distracted there. Anyway, we play hide and seek a lot. But what about when you really want to hide? Right now my youngest is laying on the floor screaming because he can’t reach his milk; if he would just roll over a bit he could reach. It makes me want to scream and hide myself. I have depression, so there are someday’s where I wish I could hide all day long. Especially when my kids cry over everything in one day.

Don’t lie, we’ve all been there. It’s okay, sometimes you just need to take a breather. It’s okay for you to lock the bathroom door so you can have five minutes of alone. It’s okay to hide in the closet to eat your ice cream because it’s your damn ice cream and you don’t want to share today or have ice cream all over your clothes from your messy child. We’re human, I don’t know a single person who can listen to their kids argue or scream or cry all day long. I know what you’re thinking, what cruel mother runs away when they’re child is in distress? I’m not telling you to run, I’m telling you to stop beating yourself up. There are days where we can’t fix everything instantly, and on those days you also need to think of yourself. We forget that we need to not only care for our children but we need to care for ourselves. If you need to pop the kids in front of Paw Patrol for a few episodes just so you can sit at the kitchen table to read a chapter of the book you’re reading, do it.

It’s okay to hide. That guilt you feel when you come out of hiding, that’s okay too. It just means you love your children.It’s also okay to put the kids to bed early and open up that bottle of vodka. Be sure to mix it with some orange juice, we are trying to take care of ourselves here, need those vitamins to help with the adventures the following day.

~D