I hope everyone has had a great start to their New Year, if you made resolutions did you keep them? I never believed much into the “new year, new me” hype but this year I am trying it because boy, do I need to do some changes. My resolution is to be a better mom. I’m serious. My parenting has changed, it’s gotten lazy, I tried to blame it on other things, like my fiancé working so much, but I’m finally admitting it’s me.

My daughter is 6, going to be 7 in February. She is my first born and my only girl, I used to love having a mini me, however, now me and my mini me fight all the time. I’m completely serious when I say we have at least one argument a day. And lately I’ve realized I have been pushing her away, I don’t like to spend time with her. Yeah, now you agree with my resolution. If I see something I know she would enjoy to do I tell my fiancé to do it with her because I don’t want to. I no longer like to snuggle with her on the couch, I ask her to get off me. Play time went from daily, to weekly, to I’d rather spend time cleaning than play with her.

I’m not like this at all with my son. We play, we snuggle, and I’m happy to spend all day with him.

I don’t know how this happened, I know it didn’t used to be like this. I’m not exactly sure on how to fix it completely, I know it’s also going to be a lot of work because right now our relationship is not great. I am going to have myself to play with her again, I am making sure we read together more, work on better conversations, anything to have us spending more time together. I even have a list of parenting books and have been looking for mother – daughter specific books. My goal is to give her the same attention I give my son because she deserves it and she needs it, I need it, last thing I want is for this to continue.

I will keep everyone updated on how things go, what works for us and what doesn’t.